Questioning my Life's path.

The buzz about who in the hell got form 6.
Truth is, i don't wanna take form 6.
But after some heart to heart talk with my mom.
I decided to do it.
But that's not what's bothering me.
The thing that is bothering me is which school am i going too take form 6.
Guess what? I got Kajang High School
I honestly can say, i have tremendous respect for the school and its traditions
But i was in Kajang High when i was 15 and 16 years old.
And i'm telling this
From the bottom of my heart.
That i changed for the worse at high school
I've done things there that my family and friends will have every reason too hate me
But i don't blame them. I blame myself.


I remembered at the end of form 4. I vowed to study my butt off and try to go back to Jasmin
And i did eventually.
I am glad to meet and be friends with the new friends and re-newed friends ive made at Jasmin.
I met some amazing people here in Jasmin and i will never forget.

That's why i feared the worse when i saw the results.
I am trying not to come back to high school.
Its super personal. But yet i don't have anyone there.
I just don't get it. The reason why i choose form 6 is to ease my mom financial needs for my family.
and yet she does't let me decide which school would i wanna take form 6.
Trust me. I am not the type of guy who needs international or private physicality  
I just wanna take form 6 somewhere other than kajang.
Of course i'll go to a government school but anywhere but here.
I truly wish my mom understands
Really. i do.
I know what am i doing, and i know its gonna be hard if i do take form 6 in KL and stay with my dad
I know its gonna be hard
I knew the risks
But i am prepared to take them.
Why can't I?

I pray that i do take form 6 somewhere else but here.
Its not that i wanna go away.
Its just, Its time for me to be a man.
If my dad can travel from taiping, perak to pinang just for school.
If he can handle all that difficulty in his life
Why can't I?

Till then. Goodbye. and hopefully my mom understands. :)

CHANGE. For better of for worse.

Change.
One of the primary facts of Life.
What's change?
Change is an evolution or a step forward towards a better tomorrow.
Even walking for the first time its a change.
Yes change can be a significant factor of life
But that doesn't mean its for the good and righteousness 

 Change can happen for the bad too.
Like changing of a new world order, an evil powerful one
A best friend, or a friend of ours that changes into someone he/she is not.
As fucked up as it sounds. yeah, its still change.

My schooling years have thought me many many lessons of life.
But some of them, arguably the most significant ones of all in my life is.
'To be Loved, show love. To be respected , respect others'
And 'Friendship is earned like a bond of brotherhood/sisterhood.'
And not too say Ive earned respect from everyone. I just hope and pray that i did so.

Sadly the negative changes around us, including ourselves has at times, turn against our family, our friends and etc. Cause that's life. the challenges can come in unexpected fashion.
So yeah, that's one of the bad things about change.

Need to pause for a moment. Gotta eat! :9 Later.
 

Statement

And yes, I know that my blog title is narcissistic and a show off mentality.
Believe me, Its not.
I was inspired by the unlikely of sources that  is ever to be found.

Reincarnation of The Great one.

Hey guys, Eric here. This is my second blogger account cause some idiot just hacked into my account. So remove it from following immediately! thankyou.

Anyways. Imma be blogging like a dude with no meaning of life soon,
so buckle up, its gonna be a bumpy ride